I am antsy today. Impatient. Fidgety. Ready to be and do and go, with nowhere to go. I don’t know if it is the fact that we’ve been here 3 years now and my mind automatically leans towards preparing for going away. Maybe that’s what it is.
D.C. is so fast paced. Seems to be a much more “in a hurry” kind of town. Maybe it is the fact that I’m just over the hurry. I prefer a much slower pace of life. Mayberry, so to speak.
In all likelihood, even if we move, the new city will be pretty busy. There aren’t too many Air Force bases in Mayberry-esque towns.
Right now, it is a quiet, cloudy Sunday afternoon. Chances are it will be raining soon. Perfect nap taking, book reading, movie watching weather. But, here I sit. My computer chair bouncing with the agitated, anxious movement of my leg. Don’t feel like I can sit still. I need to find something to do with all this pent up “giddy up”.
Sure, I could go clean house. I’ve already spent one day this week scrubbing the walls and baseboards downstairs. But I don’t feel like cleaning. I’d rather save that for when The Boy isn’t home.
I could go read, but I’m not sure I could sit still and focus.
I have a photo shoot scheduled for this evening but looks like it will be raining by then.
The sounds of the Braves game The Boy is listening to, which normally keeps me interested, isn’t slowing my brain either.
Maybe if I write out what things are bouncing around in my brain, I can slow down and lose the fidgets.
The Boy’s job and all the possibilities, that’s the majority of it. There are many ways this could go and I’m behind him 100% no matter what he chooses. I’m excited for him. He’s waited a long time to come to this decision and it means a great deal to his future. I’ve been praying that God will give him direction and wisdom. That whatever the answer is that he hears it clearly and there is no doubt. I’ve also been praying that God will help me to leave it alone. Not pester him about it. Not ask all the questions bouncing around in my brain since I know he doesn’t have the answers and that makes him crazy. I want to be there when HE’S ready to talk about it. Having prayed him up while I wait.
Now maybe I can go relax a bit now.
2 Comments
June 28, 2009 at 3:12 pm
Hope you are now relaxing. God is and will be on his throne and is fully aware of all things and will guide Steven’s steps. Love you all and miss my girls. Give them a big hug and kiss for me.
June 28, 2009 at 11:25 pm
You have a higher power at work.t is so hard to try to relax and let God work his wisdom.We humans worry so much when we should be able to turn it over to Him.Try to hang in there.
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